M A N G O .

I see a vision of Simon flash before my eyes, laughing at some joke. His blue eyes are mostly closed as he laughs…

——我看见Simon的样子在我眼前一闪而过，因为某个笑话大笑着。他笑起来蓝色的眼睛几乎合了起来……

This is what I’m fighting for. I will not die because he still lives and I will not die until he does. I drag myself across the ground and ignore the trail of blood I must be leaving. What good would blood do in my body if it were just to boil off at this inhuman rage? My entire adult life has been one warzone after the other (pull), running from one hiding spot to the next and trying to avoid the bullets in between(pull). Riley understood what it was like to lead such a sad excuse for a life, and he didn’t judge my cynicism (pull), he didn’t question my motives (pull), he only ever kept me from falling apart (pull). He was my only proof that there was a God and Sheperd had wiped that faith out with an unholy vengance. What kind of god would let that spot of good die?

——这就是我战斗的原因。我不会死，因为他还活着；我不会倒下，直到他先灭亡。我拖着自己的身体在地上艰难地爬行，毫不在意身后留下的道道血痕。如果血液只能在我失控的愤怒中被烧干，那么它留在我的躯体之中又有何用？我的一生中只有一个又一个的战场，我不停地从一个藏身之地奔向下一个躲避着一场又一场的枪林弹雨。Riley明白如此悲凉的人生是什么感觉，他从来不对我的厌世抱有偏见，他也从不质疑我所有的动机，他永远只是支撑着我好让我不至于分崩离析。他曾经是我唯一的证明，证明这世上还有神的存在，而Sheperd却用他龌龊的复仇将我的信仰彻底抹杀。是什么样的神会让那么美好的事物泯灭？

The next gust of wind doesn’t carry the oppressive smell of half-charred flesh from the crash or the scent of blood from the fight nearby. It smells like Riley; Gun grease, sweat, determination, and a cologne that you can only find in his hometown.

——接下来的一阵风没有再刮来不远处半焦的尸体或者血液的味道。它带来Riley的气味：枪油，汗水，决心，还一丝只有在他的家乡才能找到的淡古龙水的味道。

The sun doesn’t feel so hot as it beats down on me through the cloud of sand. It feels like the arms of a specter have wound around me; it feels like divine help in ripping this God-forsaken knife out of my chest. Simon.

——阳光透过团团的沙雾照在我身上已经感觉不到什么热度。我感觉仿佛有个幽灵的手臂环住了我，仿佛有个神灵帮我将这该死的尖刀从我的胸膛里拔了出来。Simon。

I don’t want to wake up. I want to stay here, stay where I can still hear Riley.

——我不愿醒来。我想就这样沉留在此，这样我就仍可以听到Riley的声音。

以上出自Casualties by A Kiss for A Kill

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5732024/11/Casualties

该死，每次文里出现他的名字，不管是Riley，还是Simon，都像被人凑了胃，闷痛得要死。

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